The Secret Jesus

Once again I have a found a most interesting documentary online (not because of the handsome narrator) . The following video goes one step further into forbidden knowledge. My studies this week have been pretty deep. I am learning more and more about Jesus, Esha, Issa, Isha. The documentary asks a lot of questions and delves deep into knowledge most people are told not to even try to consider. I had no idea, for instance, what Islam believed about Jesus or that in India they had any record on his life (all that is in the video)  Of course in order to consider that you have to unplug from the matrix. It’s good to keep learning. I put any long videos of this nature on my blog as you once again …get some popcorn and chromecast this on the big screen or something…haha.

The Fine Line Between Belief and Bigotry : (My 2 cents on the Duck Dynasty Fiasco)


So today in the news, it seems that everyone online is talking about  Phil Robertson (ya know the backwoods guy who looks like a red neck Osama Bin Laden) and his comments about homosexuals (and might I add) African American people (since they both involve me and these comments are coming from a heterosexual Caucasian man and his thoughts on the matter) .  Of course, he said nothing that I wouldn’t expect from someone in his demographic. I wasn’t surprised. If you didn’t hear about his comments that later suspended him from his TV show, he claimed homosexuality later leads to bestiality, that vagina is better than anus (is he saying this from experience?)  and went on to further say black folks were happy during segregation and weren’t as unhappy as people say they were blah blah blah ( a bunch of ignorant talk) I will post the article here read it later: .

Last time I checked, I had a boyfriend and no way desired to have sex with my dog and even though I was born during a different time, I can safely say that African Americans are better off now than they were during the Jim Crow laws. People now are jumping on the bandwagon and saying that good ol Phil’s freedom of speech rights are being violated because he was basically taken off air because of his comments. It’s gotten so politically heated that Sarah Palin is jumping in to offer her support to allow Phil Robertson to say what he feels. So… here’s me… expressing my freedom of speech about Phil Robertson’s freedom of speech (it’s the American way) :

I could care less about what Phil Robertson thinks about homosexuals. Yes he has the right to express what he says but , when you are a public figure (ie. on televison) you are representing a brand. It’s like if you are work (Mcdonalds, the Gap, or maybe you work customer service at AT&T or something) and you say something offensive to a customer, well.. your job may be on the line. You have freedom of speech to say you don’t like this that or the other for whatever reason; but if the Brand doesn’t represent your thoughts or actions and you put their reputation on the line, they have the right to let you go.

Now the problem I find is that people have a hard time understanding how to express their beliefs without expressing bigotry. This is because they haven’t been taught nor felt the need to do so because it’s only recently that the world has moved from isolated societies to a melting pot of human thought because of the internet and cable TV. So with that, let’s define bigotry or what a bigot is:


noun \ˈbi-gət\

: a person who strongly and unfairly dislikes other people, ideas, etc. : a bigoted person; especially : a person who hates or refuses to accept the members of a particular group (such as a racial or religious group)

Full Definition of BIGOT

:  a person who is obstinately or intolerantly devoted to his or her own opinions and prejudices; especially :  one who regards or treats the members of a group (as a racial or ethnic group) with hatred and intolerance
— big·ot·ed  adjective
— big·ot·ed·ly adverb

Examples of BIGOT

  1. He was labeled a bigot after making some offensive comments.
  2. <an incorrigible bigot who hasn’t entertained a new thought in years>
  3. “It’s scandalous,” he said, in the tones once used by Colonel Blimp, Britain’s best-loved bigot, who adorned the pages of the Evening Standard throughout the 1930s. —Nicholas Fraser, Harper’s, September 1996
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Origin of BIGOT

French, hypocrite, bigot

First Known Use: 1660

Related to BIGOT

dogmatistdogmatizerpartisan (also partizan), sectarian

bigotNow a lot of people may not think what they are saying is out of hate. In fact, they believe they are just expressing their beliefs out of love (I would hate to see how they talk to people they actually hate) . But his comments about his belief went as far as much as saying, “I’m right and whatever you are is wrong” goes into being a bigot. Once you say  “you’re wrong….” you have cast a judgement.  The better way is to say, “ I believe in Christianity so homosexuality isn’t for me, I don’t understand it, but I don’t judge those who do it.”  Even the Pope took a way better respectful way to express his religious belief regarding homosexuals.

I don’t expect a heterosexual, practicing Christian to understand homosexuality. I’m surprised if they do! But you can not hide bigotry behind religious belief. People are members of a particular religion to consult the “divine” to be better people. When you take your belief to express your distaste for something you are not…especially if it relates to a group of people to basically belittle them then don’t be surprised that they don’t just “bend over and take it” but decide to fuck you over instead . Your freedom ends where my mine begins. Phil Roberston is welcome to believe whatever god he wants, talk about how its made him a good straight man, and how he loves keeping Christ in Christmas. I could care less. That’s his freedom. If he wants to express bigotry and get support, then he should own his brand, start a blog, get on and gather like-minded bigots together (*cough KKK) . But hey, I don’t watch the show any how. He doesn’t represent me or any group I’m in. He represents …the good old south Bible believing Christians. If anybody should know how to “not judge” and have “unconditional love” is should be Christians.  Ah well, the struggle continues.

Why I left the Christian Religion


Sometimes people stop and ask me when it happened… No not when I had sex (get your mind out the gutter)  but when I decided to quit the religious quest of Christian perfection, to stop comparing my life with biblical characters who may have or haven’t truly existed.

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Ananias lying to Peter. WHAT REALLY HAPPENED!

Okay for most church goers , the fear of God is put into many people when you read this story. Its about this guy

Ananias who sells his property and gives only part of the money to Peter …and supposedly is struck dead by God himself for lying to Peter. Now to be short quick and to the point I just want to point out that it doesn’t say that GOD KILLED ANANIAS. We assume this is what happened.  During this time people believed that Christ would return in their lifetime so they were all instructed (BY PETER) to sell all their worldly goods and follow Peter as they prepared for the end of days. All their money was given to Peter and he would manage thus his small tribe of followers. (I’m sure this is reason why Peter was latered arrested by the Romans and killed because …well he probably wasn’t paying taxes. I doubt if they cared that he was a professed Christian as we are led to believe but THATS MY OPINION)  Now granted. PETER is banking at this moment.


  • Loyal to Jesus in his face and denies him later to save his on hyde
  • known primarily to be quick tempered and violent
  • Predisposed with questions about “being the greatest in heaven” and not caring too much on other spiritual principles
  • Generally was not concerned with preaching any gospel to anyone who wasn’t jewish.
  • His followers actually wrote the gospels from Peter’s teaching of what HE SAID …that Jesus said. (hearsay twice removed)
  • It is believed he did not get along with the ministry of Apostle Paul

With that said. It’s just my two cents…and PERSONAL OPINION that Peter realized that (like most megachurch preachers do) that he could give “hope” to an opressed people and require their devotion through monetary means. However, since tithing had not yet been invented yet Peter require his followers give him all their money. Ananias, not being a fool, decides to follow yet, save some JUST IN CASE. How, Peter finds out …who knows, but somehow he does.  When he does, he calls Ananias into his office and I believe Peter KILLS ANNIAS HIMSELF and THEN TELLS his FOLLOWERS THAT GOD DID IT to

  1. make sure that it didn’t happen again.
  2. put a fear into his followers that an ever present force was watching them and ready to kill them if they were disobedient.
  3. To ensure his income and complete devotion.

This act of God is totally adverse to how God is described by Jesus, yet now Peter’s God is just as violent and quick tempered as he? hmmm. Wouldn’t hold water in a court of law let’s be realistic people. Notice no one was there to witness this event.

here’s the scriptures my commentary will be in red:

Acts 5

Ananias and Sapphira

1 Now a man named Ananias, together with his wife Sapphira, also sold a piece of property Peter had told them to do this in order to get ready for the last days and the return of Jesus …which never happened. 2 With his wife’s full knowledge he kept back part of the money for himself, but brought the rest and put it at the apostles’ feet. What was Peter doing with ALL THIS MONEY?

3 Then Peter said, “Ananias, how is it that Satan has so filled your heart that you have lied to the Holy Spirit and have kept for yourself some of the money you received for the land? 4 Didn’t it belong to you before it was sold? And after it was sold, wasn’t the money at your disposal? What made you think of doing such a thing? You have not lied just to human beings but to God.” Sounds like some Godfather type talk to me

5 When Ananias heard this, he fell down and died.Never said God did it…he just fell down. How? Did Peter hit him? choke him? And great fear seized all who heard they only HEARD what had happened. 6 Then some young men came forward, wrapped up his body, and carried him out NOTICE they came and  carried him OUT so Annias was somewhere INSIDE ALONE with Peter, and buried him.

7 About three hours later his wife came in, not knowing what had happened. 8 Peter asked her, “Tell me, is this the price you and Ananias got for the land?” Peter playing that Godfather role again

“Yes,” she said, “that is the price.”

9 Peter said to her, “How could you conspire to test the Spirit of the Lord? Listen! The feet of the men who buried your husband are at the door, and they will carry you out also.”

10 At that moment she fell down at his feet and died.No wtinesses, only Peter’s claim that she fell down dead. Then the young men came in Once again they come in not seeing anything and, finding her dead, carried her out and buried her beside her husband. 11 Great fear I thought God hasn’t given us a spirit of fear but of love and a sound mind? hmm seized the whole church and all who heard which means hearsay no one saw it about these events.

So there you have it folks.  Peter finds out his money is funny, kills the ones who short him, says its an act of God and the sheeple follow blindly. My two cents. Peter creates a church of people and controls them through fear. How else would he? That’s a lot of people, and a whole lot of money. If it happened today, we would liken that to a ……….i dunno, a cult? But I guess it’s okay because it’s in the Bible. (just like slavery and misogyny) We later find out that  Peter is later caught and crucified upside down (symbolism folks) *but this isn’t in the bible* supposedly FOR CHRIST….yeah, along with David Koresh and the rest of his followers.

Universal Laws vs. Biblical Laws

I have some friends and family who are quick to pull a biblical scripture from the old or new testament and state that this is their claim to “success”. My own mother even claimed that I should give a “firstfruit” offering to get myself out of my financial difficulties.
Which provoked yet once again…my thoughts on the very antiquated mis-interpreted propaganda the western church has developed to get people to equate their financial state with their spiritual state.

First, for all my Christian peers who don’t study anything other than what your pastor deems “acceptable” answer me this question…

IF it is lawful in the old testament to give 10% of your income to your pastor the “Lord” then why is it that TORAH observant Jews today neither pay tithes or firstfruits to their synagogue?
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YEP…it’s true. JEWS know the old testament WAY better than Christians because that’s their primary source of spiritual knowledge. While most Christians pick only the old testament passages that are desirable.

The Bible (old testament) is a set of laws for the nation of ANCIENT Israel much like a constitution is used for America. The tithes was like their tax system and they used actual food not money. It was put into a store house for the Levitical preists and for those who were poor (welfare) at the end of the year the community ate what was left (tax returns).

Once you see that the Bible is collection of fables, poems, history, and mandates for a religious government (theocracy) for ONE NATION on this planet. You can begin to see things in their context.

WAKE up people. Your Church is robbing YOU if you feel OBLIGATEd to give 10% of your income or feel the wrath of GOD.( especially AFTER the govt takes that or more based off this system)

The universal truth is you reap what you sow…if you give you will receive. Karma–what you put out comes back to you. Nature is witness of that and that’s a universal law that all religions speak about.

So if you are blessed, thank the God of Creation but trust me…that God could care less if it’s 10% or 1%.

(btw. speaking of 10%…get 10% off the purchase of my novel Heaven Sent: the Ring of Death this month only with coupon code “READMORE2010” …go to the “my books” link)

New play!

So life is steady speeding up. I got cast for another play called EAVESDROPPER…where i’m like the narrator that is unseen…think of how ZACK Morris on Saved by the Bell used to talk to the audience…lol. I know old reference.

Been feeling under the weather so i’m getting check ups and shit. I HATE medicines and i’m doing my best to avoid shots and vaccines ewww….if possible. I don’t trust them.

Still editting my third book. I think it will go over pretty well once i’m done…that’s the hope at least.