Letting Go

I do tarot and know astrology and at times , it can be quite obsessive of trying to know what’s coming to the point where you’re not even living anymore. Even when I’m doing a reading for repeat clients, they often get caught in a loop asking the same questions week after week.

At some point we all need to take personal responsibility, have faith the universe heard your prayer and live with the energy that things will work out. Our prayers are like birds and they can’t fly on a leash.

The Shadow of the Soul

I think we all have our shadow self; the parts of our soul that we bury for whatever reason. Everyone has their own coping method for trauma. Some people deal with it openly, some relive it in their adult relationships, and others create a reality where nothing happened at all.

I think it’s important to face that shadow but don’t follow it. When we get in relationships with others, be it romantic or friendship, we have to be aware that others have some type of trauma that is deep that may not be expressed. The closer we get to them the more we may feel it. But what do you do?

You can’t remove a man’s shadow, you can just help a person realize that shadows are merely…shadows. Turn around and focus on the light and your shadow is behind you. Be guided by your shadow to know where the light is but don’t follow it or you’ll walk into darkness.

Your Self Talk Manifest

I’ve been working with the 40 Servant oracle deck (a great deck mind you) to focus on what the Universe wants me to work on. I pulled a card and place it on my headboard while I sleep.

This particular card is the media. It involves communication we receive. The propaganda we have in our head, is it true? Is the information false? Think about the things you repeat in your mind constantly. Is there a false truth floating in your mind that you parrot unconsciously ? For example , when someone asks you for money and you don’t want to give it (even though you have some) what’s your response?

Do you say “I don’t have any money” or “I’m broke” well …that’s mental propaganda. It’s a half truth. Guess what… You’re manifesting negative situations in your life by those words. The universe will test you. Change your communication

Say “I pray you find what you are looking for.” So you don’t manifest a negative situation to avoid a person… in a negative situation. 😜

It’s time to grow

Today I’m thinking about all the ways I can grow. Sometimes we want change but we look for outward change. A new job, a new lover, moving to a new location…

But maybe the only change that needs to happen is something internal. A change of the mind. A change of how you do things and not what you’re doing. Jupiter in Aries starting now through the Summer will increase this sense of self and the goals we have.

My Thoughts on the Latest Virginia Shooting… #brycewilliams

I don’t know if anyone’s noticed but Virginia seems to be pretty popular with crazy shootings. I just google Virginia and shooting and other shit pops up… but I digress…


There’s a lot that goes through my mind, first, I’m not sure if I can believe the mainstream media or not. Everything just happened so fast and my first thoughts were…

something is up.

I was relieved I wasn’t the only one feeling that. When my spider sense tingles I always wait for more information to pop up. True enough, more people are finding holes in the story. But that’s neither here or there. If the corporate controlled media is creating news to ultimately create a desired outcome or mass sentiment among the population, what could that possibly be? Race relations are at an all time high and people are just divided. That seems to reach its peaks during election time like clockwork. From the shooting to Trump talking about the latino journalist, people are picking sides and blaming the other for the detriment of the country. It’s always that group…and not just that guy. My solution, is that everyone take the news with a grain of salt and try not to let it rouse your emotions.

My second thought was that the media was being used to make a case on gun control laws. The President has been stating this case over and over and it looks like the more emotional people become, the more likely that Congress will pass a law. Besides, if you want to scare white people, blast a story about black people going berserk on white people and shooting them. Hoax or not, it’s sure to get the desired outcome if you want gun control. I don’t have a gun but I know people with guns ( I live in Texas) . I really don’t have an opinion here or there but I understand the gun owners side.

My third thought was, if this is a real bona-fide story, then we have a big issue of how we communicate with each other. This shooter was older, overweight, unemployed, black, religious, and gay… lawd a combination in itself that can cause conflict with a persons mental stability. Lot’s of gay guys have issues with growing older and physical image, and his manifesto continued on about his past modeling (get out of the past dude) and it sounds like he was constantly playing the “victim” card to make a buck.

I’m all for people fighting against discrimination when it’s due but also know drama queens that provoke issues and then cry when they get fired. You can’t have your cake and eat it too. If you’re generally a good person I seriously believe someone will come to your aid to back you up (other than a lawyer); but that can be my optimistic hopeful view I have about humanity. Then there’s the religious issue vs. being gay, the black issue vs. being gay, the unemployment issue and race….this guy sounds like he not only had self-esteem issues, but life goal issues, and perhaps depression which all rolls up into a ball of anger. In a world where people feel rejected by any and everything from race to sexual orientation I seriously believe he stopped loving himself because he didn’t believe anyone loved him and so…it made it easy for him to kill.

People who murder fail to see their connection with Universe and thus fail to see their connection with others.

Hate kills us all. So let’s refrain from allowing this story to perpetuate any more hate. As well, think rationally and don’t make decisions based out of fear. Are guns the problem or is mental instability? How then do we deal with our neighbor from day-to-day (even the ones we don’t like) ? That is the question.

Frequencies (movie) REVIEW

There is one movie that I think everybody that is an intellectual or philosophical to some degree must see. Frequencies questions whether things like fate, love, and the basis of who are can be measured and determined by the frequencies we give off. Zak who is a low frequency individual (but genius) goes to a private school with Marie who is a high frequency individual and a child prodigy. It would appear that the lower your frequency the less likely positive things will happen in your life. However, the side effect of having a high frequency and automatic prosperity is lack human empathy, which is Marie’s case. The whole movie surrounds around Zak’s love interest for Marie and his attempt to manipulate his own frequency to get to know her. I found that this movie was like a scientific Harry Potter using science as a way to control one’s outside world. Explaining how our own personal vibration and sound can subconsciously influence not only ourselves but other people. It’s a must watch, if you like thought provoking movies. If your attention span is that of a three year old…pass this one by.  

How Emotions Can Affect Your Reality

I think emotions, especially for men, can be seen as a negative thing and that really needs to stop. There is a link between consciousness, our subconscious, and how we feel about situations on a moment to moment basis. In fact it’s acknowledging those feelings where our true power comes. I found this thought provoking video with Jim Carrey talking on this subject, some people don’t know how deep this guy actually is because he is paid to be comically but just check it out.